Month: June 2006

MikeyPod 53 | Videographer (and dear, dear friend) Jeanie

There are only a handful of people whom I feel have truly transformed me, many of them with just a sentence or two. Maybe with words that they had held with them for as long as they have walked on the earth, or maybe something that had no idea that they held with them. Who knows. Since these are my last couple of months in Houston, I felt that I wanted to track a few of these people down and have them on my show.

The first guest in this series is my dear friend, videographer Jeanie. We talked over breakfast at One’s a Meal about her video project-Everyone Has A Story, the major turning points in her life and how our friendship blossomed.

Featured music:
Finniston– Changes Buy it in iTunes
Gay Dad- Everything Changes Buy it in iTunes

Voices for Creative Non-Violence: Walk for Justice

Dear Friends,

Greetings from Peoria, IL. The “Walk for Justice” is now on Day 8 of a 30 day journey through central IL, from Springfield to Chicago. Below is a press release we’ll send out tomorrow morning, just before half of our group returns to Springfield, IL, “detouring” from our planned itinerary because of alarm over an impending attack against the Iraqi city of Ramadi. We plan to visit Senator Dick Durbin’s office and read the names of people already killed in Iraq, while urging that he prevent a new attack on civilians who are trapped in Ramadi.

More information is available at the Voices website:
For steady monitoring of news about Ramadi, visit

We hope that all who receive this update will act swiftly to urge that your elected reps vigorously oppose U.S. plans to launch an attack on civilians living in Ramadi. We look forward to remaining in touch with you.

Sincerely,

VCNV Walk for Justice participants
Jeff Leys, Kathy Kelly, Tim Keough, Bob Abplanalp, Renee Espeland, Dan Pearson, Lee Jankowski and the Argyle office crew, Scott Blackburn, Laurie Hasbrook, Joel Gulledge, Michael Beckman

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MikeyPod 52 | Chris Doelle from Fresh Media Works

Today I talked to Chris Doelle about his new Podcasting Network, Fresh Media Works. Also feature music from Triple Creme, Christopher Dallman, and Dalminjo featuring Anja Øyen Vister

Triple Creme
Triple Creme’s MySpace
Ongline
Chris Doelle
Fresh Media Works
Podcast Ready
Christoper Dallman’s Website
Christopher Dallman’s MySpace
Dalminjo
Ed’s Mixed Bag
Procrasticast

New Interview

Brian from Procrasticast interviewed me this weekend. We had a really great conversation, check it out!

MikeyPod 51 | Birthday 37, Summertime Blues, Feedback and Music

I guess the title pretty much covers it.

Links:
Chris Doelle’s Pod Music Countdown
Hollye Davidson’s The Artist’s Eye

**oooops! I said that Hollye’s podcast could be found at the PMN, which is totally not right. It is at Podcaster News. I don’t know what the hell I was thinking.**
Music:
What If I Get Sick-New Sense from the album Flowers Before Hours iTunes myspace

Miss Tony-Azita from the album Life on the Fly iTunes

This Lamb Sells Condos-Final Fantasy from the album He Poos Clouds

SPAM!

Hey everyone, I just sorted through around 6000 spam comments and hopefully I rescued all the real ones. Thanks to epilonious I have installed a new plug in that will ask for the solution to a simple math problem before you can comment. If you get stuck, don’t forget that you have a calculator on your computer!

Me and Brad

I talked to one of my brothers in pod last night, Brad from Willing Warrior. What a treat. Seriously. Brad is right up there in my list of podcasters from whom I hope to learn, and who really personify what it is that I love about this medium. His questions really helped me to explore and put into words what I started to in my writing yesterday.

please check it out!

I learned to stutter

What I learned from being with John is that the society suddenly treated me as a woman, as a woman who belonged to a man who is one of the most powerful people in our generation. Some of his closest friends told me that probably I should stay in the background, I should shut up, I should give up my work and that way I’ll be happy. I was lucky. I was over thirty and it was too late for me to change. But still, still, this is one thing I want to say to the sisters, because I really wish that you know that you are not alone. Because the whole society started to attack me, that the whole society wished me dead that I started to accumulate a tremendous amount of guilt complex, and in result of that I started to stutter. I consider myself a very eloquent woman, and also an attractive woman, and suddenly because I was associated to John that I was considered an ugly woman– ugly Jap who took your monument or something away from you. That’s when I realized how hard it is for women. If I can start to stutter, being a strong woman and having lived thirty years by then. Learned to stutter in three years of being treated as such, it is a very hard road.

-Yoko Ono at the First International Feminist Conference, Cambridge, MA 1973

Last week I was interviewed by Bill Grady for his show You are the Guest. I was quite nervous about appearing on the show, knowing that politically we have very different leanings, and knowing that I don’t yet have the knowledge to hold up against someone who doesn’t already agree with me. I haven’t been able to listen to the show all the way through. I hear myself stuttering, stammering, and never really getting out there and saying what was in my heart.

While there are a number of things that bothered me about how I presented myself on the show, the thing that I find most troubling is the fact that I avoided saying that I am gay. Internalized homophobia? Gay shame? Not wanting to make “an issue” out of my sexuality? I don’t know.

These questions combined with Willing Warrior’s excellent interview with Joshua, and some brief behind the scenes conversation I had with Ragan Fox has me doing some serious thinking about my own homophobia.

From the beginning of my podcast, I have struggled with finding a balance between doing a gay show about my experiences and a show about my experiences as a man who is also gay. The more I struggle, the harder the line between the two is to discern. I make no bones about the fact that I do not want to be labled as a gay show, or as a “queercaster” because I want to produce content that is of interest to more than just a gay audience. To be perfeclty honest, I dread being lumped in with the plethera of gay podcasts that are limited to talk about casual sex, alcohol and drug use, bitchy humor, and celebrity gossip. Then I think, doesn’t this disdain for gay culture keep me divided from my own community? We are a community, even if we don’t always act like one.

So then I hear Joshua’s story and I remember what the cost is to real people when this cycle of intolerance is perpetuated. Do I contribute by keeping my mouth shut about my gayness when I have perfectly good reason to bring it up? Do I contribute when I don’t speak up about modern day minstrel shows like Queer Eye for the Straight Guy and Will and Grace? How about when I didn’t speak up about the fact that even though Richard apologized, I still believe that Adam Curry was dead wrong, and that his reaction to Madge’s accusations proved what a homophobe he really is. Then there is the waiter at breakfast this morning–I caught myself internally rolling my eyes and asking “why does he have to be so faggy?”

The heart of all of this is that it’s time for me to start asking myself if I am working against the gay community I would like to see, or doing something to contribute to it. How this relates to the content of my show remains to be seen. I guess I will always fear alienating listeners, but the cost of failing to speak my mind has become too clear to censor myself anymore.